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Thursday, 23 September 2010

Monday, 12 April 2010

things to achieve in 2010
- Get into college and perish the thought of doing form six
- Decide between journalism and law
- Take up vocal lessons again and learn the drums to brush up
- Participate in a runway
- Participate in a beauty pageant
- Model for a magazine
- Try to save enough money for traveling
- Learn how to control my temper
- Change my thinking and stop being judgmental
- Get a new handphone and buy a laptop with my own money
- Patch up broken friendships
Hopefully,by the end of the year,I"ll achieve all of the above and enjoy the satisfaction

Sunday, 14 March 2010

     I'm feelingggg
                                       SO jolly happY

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

I plan to do something daring

Saturday, 03 October 2009

I love the way life is heading now,it seems so relaxing and I like it that I'm no more the person who use to keep quiet and not dare to stand for herself when life got a grip on her!I need a change,I need a difference in certain areas in my life!I need lots of changes in my life and I need to learn.listen and see things differently!I need to stop clinging on to the past,stop talking about it,forgetting about it and move on again!I need to change my thinking,my conservativeness,my words and my speech..I need to be a better person and come out from my comfort zone...Is it gonna be a piece of cake to make a changes in the areas I'm focusing on?I doubt its gonna be easy path but I'm gonna try and see where it leads to!I'm going to put my all in this and give it the best This thought has been floating in my mind for a long time now and it gets me pondering on it for the better!Firstly,I would like to mention a few things on my blog,I wanna give myself another chance,accept my mistake and stop making decisions that's not gonna edify me..I'm starting from myself and later to the people around me...

To you over there
I know you're reading this because I asked you to do so...I really love you for who you are and for everything you been to me!Thank you for spending your time with me when we were younger and I really enjoyed playing with you!You have definitely made my childhood a memorable one with all you jokes to color it!Though I no longer have you with me back here,but I'm sure I can always count on you even in my weakness!Sometimes I really miss having you around,I miss forcing you to do things like listening to my lame jokes and I remember how you will end up laughing like a maniac!I miss the times you stood by me and prayed for me when you knew I was hurting deep down inside!I miss your daily messages and presents that was keeping all happy throughout the day!I miss having you,I really do!We may be far apart but I seriously love you to bits and pieces

And to you,
I may have judged you for the past and I may have treated you wrong all this while yet I'm really sorry!I'm sorry for the ugly past we had and I don't want history repeating itself!I'll try to forget what happened and I wish to have you as my friend!It may not be the same like last time but I'm positive it'll will be a lot more better,don't you think so?
Exactly a year ago,I posted this

Do you know I'm hurting so much within me??Do you know I'm constantly blaming myself for this??Can you sense the pain I'm feeling and my bleeding emotions?My anger and hatred towards everything I know??My tears are all stored up inside and it's flows every single time I'm alone!I'm still controlling it and I cant show it or it would make things worse..We are all going through this crucial time and we'll face it together!I wont and I cant add salt to the wound!How long more can I let it be?How can I go through this alone

I pulled through enough before,I persevered in my sufferings and it did produce endurance!At this very point,I don't know how to consider it pure joy and see the good in it!Have you forsaken me??Have you forgotten your child here??Did you not promise me to you hold me close and let your love surround me??Where did I stumble and go wrong??Did I not commit everything to you??Did I not put you first in my life?Why oh why,did you let this thing to happen and affect me badly??Did I drift and neglect you?

I wish to rise up on eagles wings and not faint here!I know you never fail me but I cant help myself by asking why did this break me to pieces now..Have you not seen me through my weakest moment and carried me through it??Teach me how to cling on and hang on to your promises!!It's distasteful and grueling but would you take me once again back to your side as I lay all I have at your feet??My joy and failures you have it and help me see the good in life!Give me rest as I come back!

Today I look back and thank God for what I went through over the past few months because it has definitely made me a different person and now I can overcome obstacles and smile to myself once more...

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours

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Sunday, 12 July 2009

JUST ACCEPT ME THE WAY I AM OR
PLEASE BUZZ OFF

Sunday, 07 June 2009

I miss my dog,Kofi And I miss cuddling up and feeling like a little child

I miss a lot of things in life and sometimes I wish we could turn things around and it wouldn't be so messy!I wish I was a better person inside and out and I wish that we could erase our past mistakes ,forgive one another and move on!I guess our ego has caught us up,we're choking in it but still we"re not bothered about the situation around us anymore...Why can"t we just give ourselves another chance,humble ourselves and make things right once again?Maybe I'm better off like this,maybe things were meant to be this way but in the end,I still feel there's something missing behind that smile we fake...

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Overall this year has been really hectic for me,I'm really trying my outmost best to give my all and start focusing on my studies instead because nothing in life comes easy..So for me now,I'm learning something everyday and one day I'll find the purpose of it all!

Monday, 02 February 2009

Oh yeah don't expect me to be the girl you use to know,and don't expect me to live to your expectations,don't expect me to shut up because I'm gonna voice out whatever I want and put you in your place!By the way,don't come up with bullshit rules because it's not gonna take me anywhere